I want to be happy...

This girl that is writing all these words at the moment, is a girl who always get involved in a lot of troubles.
Yes, that's me.
I always have many problems at one time.
Though sometimes, I am very scared to face each problem but in order to make my heart feel better, I would tell myself that everything is going to be okay.
Actually, I am too scared to face each one of them because I feel like I want to die when I have a problem.
I easily get worried over one thing.
Thank God, there are always friends around me who would kindly make me feel better.

Almost get used being in trouble, I'd noticed that the way I deal with each problem is always the same.
Don't you think, that being in trouble or having a problem is a normal thing in your life?
My way, I would act like nothing had happen but sometime in a day, there would be a time I would think hardly on how to solve the problem. And at that time, my face would look so serious and I would not talk much.
Me, stop talking? Can't you imagine?
Sounds funny, but that's the fact.

Usually, there would be one or two songs that I would choose, to make myself fell better or to motivate myself back.
Being in trouble would sometimes make me demotivated.
Thus, I need something to fill my energy.
Well, this time, my song for my problem is both from Savage Garden.
I'm a great fan of them since I was 10 or 11 years old.
Their songs are very good.

This is Crash and Burn song

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
Its hard to find relief and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you cant take anymore

Let me be the one you call
If you jump Ill break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
Youre not alone

When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
Youre caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you cant face the day

Let me be the one you call
If you jump Ill break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
Youre not alone

And there has always been heartache and pain
And when its over youll breathe again
Youll breath again

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please
To tame your wild wild heart

Let me be the one you call
If you jump Ill break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
Youre not alone

Nice isn't it?
Especially when I feel really alone by myself.
Makes me feel much better...

Another one is The Animal Song

I've been having difficulties keeping to myself
Feelings and emotions better left up on the shelf
Animals and children tell the truth, they never lie
Which one is more human
There's a thought, now you decide

Sometimes this life can get you down
It's so confusing
There's so many rules to follow
And I feel it
'Cause I just run away in my mind

Superstars and cannonballs are running through your head
Television freak show cops and robbers everywhere
Animals and children tell the truth, they never lie
Which one is more human
There's a thought, now you decide

This is just part of the lyric.
Oh, how I feel much better...

That is why, people usually did not notice that I am exactly in a sorrow.
I try my best to hide my feeling.
I wanted the most to be happy at all time but what can I do since there's always problem awaits for me even in the future.

Don't you think that feeling happy is the best thing that could happen in life?