Good bye...

Thanks to God, for helping me to escape from the sadness.
Though I am not as happy as usual, but at least I feel better.

Though I am still puzzled at the moment but at least there are good friends who are always with me. They are supporting me when I was really weak I can't even look at my own reflection. They feel what I felt and I feel like my sadness has been divided among us, thus making me feel much better.

It's sad for me when a good story end. But it is also sad when people who are important to me are far away from me. My family is a thousand miles away from me, and I miss them so much but I just keep it to myself. Because if I started thinking that I miss them and how I wish I could be with them, surely I will cry at that moment.
Since it is impossible for me to cry at the moment in this office; where there are many people around me, I really think i should stop missing them for a while.
But in about 6 weeks, I can see them again, because I will go back to Johor.

My best friend, Izyan, is going back this Tuesday to Selangor.
And I'm going to miss her too. She was such a good friend. One of the best that I've ever met. She was the one who protected me from my enemy though she was not so strong. She's very phlegmatic but she can't bare to see my enemy bullied me.
Isn't it funny?

My housemate, kak Siti, she loves to tease me. She really thinks that the way I talk is weird. She was such a nice friend and I know her since I was in my diploma. She always help me in times of need and her family was so nice when I went to her house during raya. In about that 6 weeks, I will leave her and go back to my family.
So, that means, another good bye to be said.

Don't you think it's sad when those 'Good bye' words are said?
We do not know when we will meet again with those people that we said good bye to.
And we are going to miss them and feel really sad when we want to leave them.
We wanted to cry when we say those word but we do not want the people that we said good bye to, know that we are sad.
We wanted to cry the moment we leave them and we try to calm our heart and said to ourselves that we are going to be okay and the people we said good bye to will also be okay.

In another words, a good bye will always lead to the feeling of missing.
I really wish, I would not need to say those words.
Because if I started to miss anyone, I will surely cry.
And because I hate to cry, I don't want to miss anyone.
But I keep missing people who are far away from me so I acted like I am strong but exactly I am so damn weak.

In this life, what I needed the most apart from God, is my family and my friends.
How I love them so much and how I value them in my life.
To all of them, thank you so much for everything you had done for me and how I wish I could repay what all of you had done for me.
And how I wish to be with all of you every time and every second in my thought.